Just call me Scrooge

This year I feel like I just don't want Christmas to come. I'm just not in the mood. Am I weird? Don't answer that- I already know the answer. I hated all of the Christmas stuff before Thanksgiving, and now that it is after Thanksgiving, and technically "Christmas time," I still find myself resenting anything Christmas. I am looking forward to going home for the holidays- that is for sure. Maybe I'm resenting Christmas because it has so many other meanings. My time in Provo is getting shorter and shorter- and all of the Christmas stuff is just a constant reminder of that. I also have just been ridiculously disgusted with the ever increasing materialism. Why am I taking a stance now, when my whole life has been filled with materialistic Christmases? You would know just as much as I would. I really do like Christmas, but I guess I'm just not ready for it to come. This time of year is just hard as well, so maybe that has a lot to do with it. I'm about to turn 24 which is awful. haha. I'm so weird about my birthday. I just hate getting older! So maybe once my birthday is over, I will be more in the Christmas spirit.... who knows... Until then I guess all I have to say is "Baa Humbug!"